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Earlier this morning
Before the sun showed the light it's bringing
With my eyes that are sleepy,
I stared at you so closely.
I looked at every details on your face,
The lips, the eyes and the expressions you made.
In darkness I tried to put my hands on your shoulders
But I failed, seemed there was something that hindered.
I wanted to ask you if you're angry or not okay
But I never found the courage to say.
All I did was to whisper the words
And just hoped they could enter your world.
Then something hit me really hard.
Here, straight to my heart.
Really deep I was thinking
Of all the mess in your life I am bringing.
In the darkness, is it where I am taking you?
On the side of the road where you are not suppose to?
I am sorry. I am sorry.
With a true blue heart, I am really sorry.
Now I have a decision to make
Not considering the pain I know I cannot take.
I am choosing to break my heart,
Than to see you falling apart.
And what we have will never be gone
Even all the unsaid and undone.

I'm Hurt

I am begging to my self,

"Daye, please stop.
Let's just stop what we're doing and what we're feeling.
It's not helping us.
It's not bringing us up.
It's not right. You know that.
Please, Daye. I'm already in so much pain.
I can't hold it anymore."

But how can I let go of this?
How can I teach my heart to forget?

This causes me to cry out of nowhere.
This causes me to be silent all of a sudden.

You.
You make me laugh and cry at the same time.
You are a sweet pain of mine.


So help me God.

Secret Love

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't? Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't? You fall deeper with each passing day, But try to hide it in every possible way. He's only a friend, and nothing else...That's the lie you keeping telling yourself. You keep on saying he's just a bud, But deep inside, you're falling in love. You get so giddy when you meet his eyes, But keep reminding yourself it isn't right. A simple glance turns into a stare, But you pretend that you don't care. It's not right for you two to be. Is that why you hide it so no one can see? But how long will you pretend? Keep lying that he's just a friend? Perhaps your feelings you can never show. Perhaps it's wrong for him to know. Your friendship can't be risked over this, So being his girl is an impossible wish...



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My Heart

Someone saw me keeping my locket necklace under my shirt.
She said, "Why are you keeping it? Show it."


Quietly, I whispered, "If only you knew what's inside, you'll say, 'Do not keep it nor have it. Junk it.'"

Sorry that I Love You

I am confused.
I know I should not, but I can still see myself standing where I am not supposed to.
How can I have the courage to take a step when all I wanted is to be where I am right now?
How can I have the courage to let go of the hands that fills the spaces between my fingers, filling the spaces of my life too?
How can I have the courage to open up my heart and let you understand everything when I know that after doing such things, you will change and nothing will remain?

Everyday I suffer from the pain I have inside.
Caused by these words left unspoken and actions left undone.
But if I think more about it, I would still choose to suffer...
than to see you walk away.

To my heart I am sorry.
I once promised I will take care of you and keep you away from people who might hurt you.
But now it is me who puts you into agony and pain and suffering.
Do not worry, I know this pain is temporary.
If I already found the door that leads to betterness and if I already have the courage to open it,
you will be stronger and happier.
There are no regrets.
There are no mistakes.
All these are worth it.
Let's just wait. And wait. And wait.
For now, let's just smile. And cry. And smile.

To you, I love you. And I am sorry for loving you.
You are the person I could never afford to lose.