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That was really a memorable moment for me ^^.

We held hands. Just like that.

no strange or exciting feeling...

but it gave me happiness =) ...

and sadness =( ...

for i know that no matter how tight i hold your hand,

after that prayer,

i just have to let you go.

but i will never forget that feeling..

when you filled the spaces between my fingers..

..just like filling my whole life too.

[sorry for this post.. this shouldn't be read by you.]

---> this feeling is not the way it seems to be. it's not the boyfriend-girlfriend thing. it's something extraordinary that only those people who know me very well, i mean really really really well, could fully understand. i am not carrying a feeling that could destroy anything. i am carrying a feeling that will give me that "thing" I've been searching for a very long time. a "thing" that is indescribable. a "thing" that only me and God know.