..upset..

why is this happening? i always try my best to treasure all the relationships that i have right now because i do not want to mess up with anybody..because i want to show to everyone that i love them and my life would be in pieces without them. i always want them to feel that i am just within their reach no matter what, even though i am miles away from them or how busy i am. BUT TODAY, i feel like i do not deserve to be called a "friend", or even a "sister" maybe. i am really upset with myself. i didn't even notice that a friend of mine was missing. it really hurts because she is one of my sisters in Christ. now i do not know what to do. so ashamed of what i have done. what shall be accomplished now? ,,,know what i am thinking? list all the people i know and every sunset, i will look at my list and check if i ever saw them that day or if i ever had the guts to see whether they're doing fine or not. (*sigh) i am really sorry. from now on, i will add an additional effort on what i call "best" to maintain good relationship with every people i know.

God let this thing happen for me to see my mistakes and for that, i am really thankful. i am sorry if i wasn't able to be a good daughter to You because i am not taking good care of the all blessings that You have given. You showed me how irresponsible i am despite of all the opportunities that You're giving me -- opportunities that definitely made my dreams come true. i am really sorry Father.

1 Corinthians 12

²² In fact, some parts of the body that seem weakest and least important are actually the most necessary. ²³And the parts we regard as less honorable are those we clothe with the greatest care. So we carefully protect those parts that should not be seen, ²⁴ while the more honorable parts do not require this special care. So God has put the body together such that extra honor and care are given to those parts that have less dignity. ²⁵ This makes for harmony among the members, so that all the members care for each other. ²⁶ If one part suffers, all the parts suffer with it, and if one part is honored, all the parts are glad.